ZFB* Update

*(ZFB= zit for brains)

I've now run the gamut of ER, MD (GP), DC, Bad Neuro, Endo, Good Neuro and will make another stop at ND before the trip is over. All I need is a loaf of bread, a nice manchego cheese, and a bottle of Merlot and my meal of alphabet soup will be complete.

At the "Good Neuro's" office yesterday, I was told that the zit is not worthy of time nor concern. No need to take a second look unless I can't look up, down and sideways without moving my head to do so. No reason for the icicle drippy feeling, no reasons for the rest of my "not quite me" feelings.

He told me that the stress of an extrovert in isolation (as we mom-trepreneurs often endure), having a busy/noisy mind (that sometimes wanders into dark and ugly spaces without being checked with what's true), and feeling I must stay sedintary at my PC can cause a lot of stress. So part of his perscription was yoga, meditation and doing more drive-bys (doing for others reduces stress, did you know that?)

Throughout all of this, I'm reminded to be grateful. Grateful for friends who encourage me to know that I'm the master of domain (so to speak...) and only I know my body best. If this isn't "normal," I need to keep pressing on until I get to a root cause.

Patience, of course, is not one of my best skills. Given that irritability is one of my largest symptoms, I truly embody Bill Cosby's wife as he describes her in Fatherhood... stop it. Stop It! STOP IT!!! That's me at least once a day.

I did make a bit of a breakthrough yesterday. After using the glucose monitor, signs may be pointing in the direction of hypoglycemia, which in and of it self is not a diagnosis, but will help us go backwards to find the cause of the low blood sugar. Something is out of balance.

I'm all about balance. Could dance on the arm of a chair for hours in college and I've been dubbed "Limbo Queen" even though I have not defended my title in the last 5 or 6 years.

So it looks like I'm not as sweet as I used to be. I hear as one nears 40, a good deal of the overt "sweet" is filtered out. I'd like to keep the "sweet" that's on the inside, though... no matter what happens. We'll take this one step at a time.

I'll keep you posted as I keep literally and figuratively poking along.